Chapter 1 No More Yearning
I spent ten years with Chris Reynolds, but his heart had always belonged to Rachel Channing, his foster sister and a religious devotee.
During my late pregnancy, I got up at night and saw my usually cold and distant husband kneeling at Rachel’s feet.
“You were forced to leave and devote yourself to Christianity for ten years, so I remained celibate for ten years.
“The child in her belly isn’t mine. I’m clean. This child is my pledge of loyalty to revenge for you.”
Rachel noticed me eavesdropping and lifted her foot toward him. “Telling you to stay celibate was just a joke. How could you get her pregnant with someone else’s child? That’s truly cruel.”
He held Rachel’s ankle and kissed it–a humble side of him I had never seen before.
I quietly left and called my mother that very night before dawn. “That ex–convict–I’m willing to marry him.”
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My mother’s voice remained as stem as ever. “Lucas was imprisoned for ten years, that’s true, but Rachel by Chris‘ side is the real ex–convict.
“I sent Chris to you to take care of you and protect you, not for you to throw yourself at him. I gave you ten years, and you should have grown up by now.”
Father was in intensive care because of a stock market crash. Mother sounded exhausted. At 3 am., she was still working overtime.
In the past, I wanted to marry the person I loved. Even if he didn’t love me, I still wanted to possess him. But now I regretted it.
“Doctor, I’ve made up my mind. Let’s do it.”
Watching the sunrise with my own eyes, the doctor I’d been waiting for had finally arrived.
I had seen such beautiful sunrises thousands of times–in the past to get pregnant, now to terminate the pregnancy.
- The doctor sighed. “Keira, I’ve seen how happy you were, from trying to conceive to getting pregnant at last. You took nearly a thousand fertility shots for this child. Don’t be impulsive.
“Where’s your husband Chris? Did you two fight again?”
Staring at my silent phone, I said blankly, “He’s not my husband. I don’t want to have this baby anymore.”
I used to want to give birth to negotiate with my mother about marrying Chris and letting him take over the company. Now it wasn’t necessary.
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Feeling the piercing pain below, I numbly stared at the fluorescent light above my head, remembering how I had arro- gantly kicked Chris Reynolds‘ electric scooter years ago. “Come hell or high water, I get what I want. There’s nothing I can’t have!”
For ten whole years, when he said he wanted to have a child with me, I had forgotten how he had abandoned me to run to Rachel. I thought I had successfully obtained the love I wanted.
But now I suddenly realized that what I thought was love was actually just an act he put on to get rid of me.
Even though I made his sick mother recover, his drunk and violent father got punished, and the orphan Rachel fin- ished graduate school.
Even though my affection gave him everything, he would only say coldly to me when I was breaking down, “Being presumptuous is wrong. I don’t love you. Do you understand?”
This time I truly understood.
I would no longer yearn to be Chris‘ princess.
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